This song sums up my heart's cry .. None but Jesus, there's just no one else who can bring peace in times of chaos and confusion .. only Jesus .. 
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=axqXMuW8x1U

None but Jesus
by Brooke Fraser

God is So Good ...

I usually don't update on personal matters, but today I'm just feeling like I have to describe how good God has been and is presently... Do you ever feel as though there are just things that you can't keep your mouth shut about because your heart and mind just feels like it wants to burst? Well, this is exactly how I feel about God lately ..

A while ago, I wrote an entry about my mother who has been suffering from depression. It has just been an up and down battle within my family, however, with all of this God has been so constant with every circumstance and situation. In the past month, God has been more real and so much more tangible than I can remember. There was a sermon at ANCC several weeks ago about God showing up .. and boy, did he show up exactly when we needed him to!

My mother is on her road to healing .. my friend (cs) has taught me a lot about this, the process of healing is in layers. Nothing in life is immediate, but as we shed the layers of burdens, anger, sadness, bitterness, and unfortunately life events - there is a surfacing of hope, light, joy, faith and even a smile.

God is good. I am brought back to the lyrics of the bridge that touched me years ago ..

Holy Love by Andy Park

(Bridge)

When I find you I find healing
When I find you I find peace
And I know that there’s no river so wide
No mountain so high, no ocean so deep
That You can’t part the sea

July already .. summer is going by so quickly! It has been nice just working from home 2 days a week, it takes time to get used to as there are days when I just feel so unmotivated and can think of a million things I can do around the house. I feel less stressed at home though, I guess home is where the heart is ..

In June, Elson and I went to the OYG retreat (Onnuri Youth Group) and we were both just so blessed. We were also blessed by the message from the guest speaker of the retreat, Elson's cousin "Pastor" Prentice. Seeing him use his talents for God was also touching. On the last night, the lyrics of "Hosanna" was highlighted during the message .. "Break my heart for what is yours" .. This really stood out to me because my "motto" on my xanga has been "May the things that breaks God's heart, break yours as well.." posted couple of years ago. This was something that really spoke to my heart when I heard a guest speaker at a Perspectives meeting quoting this from Dr. Bob Pierce's prayer (who founded World Vision). All this to say, this youth retreat really fed my soul. It allowed me to reflect on my own life and brought me back to the things that mattered to me years ago in my faith.

Hosanna
by Brook Fraser

I see the king of glory
Coming down the clouds with fire
The whole earth shakes, the whole earth shakes
I see his love and mercy
Washing over all our sin
The people sing, the people sing

Hosanna, hosanna
Hosanna in the highest

I see a generation
Rising up to take the place
With selfless faith, with selfless faith
I see a new revival
Staring as we pray and seek
We're on our knees, we're on our knees

Heal my heart and make it clean
Open up my eyes to the things unseen
Show me how to love like you have loved me
Break my heart for what is yours
Everything I am for your kingdom's cause
As I walk from earth into eternity

Its been a while since I have posted anything! I'm not sure if there are people who still read this as FB seems to be the most popular these days..

Hmm.. Since my last update (Christmas 07) there hasn't been too many changes in my life. I am one year older and will soon celebrating my 2nd year anniversary (May 13th) to Elson. Its strange to think how fast time has passed and to be reaching our 2nd year mark is something that I am looking forward to  :)  Recently I have picked up a new hobby, bicycling. Elson surprised me with it on my birthday by driving me to Greg's Cycle! Its funny how girly Elson can get when picking out my gifts, its almost as if he knows exactly what I would like as I have emphasized to him how much I love all things girly :)  Here it is, isn't it pretty?

You can guess what I have planned for us on our 2nd year anniversary!  :) Something I would like to tackle this summer is understanding the intricacies of gardening. I'm learning that we may have to tear out all of the bushes in front of our house as the weeds have integrated into the roots of our bushes! I'm sounding more and more like a grandma, but when I speak to gardeners they absolutely love it. There must be some reward in digging up the ground, planting, watering and watching it blossom.

Happy Spring - sort of :)

Merry Christmas!!

How come everytime November hits - time goes by so much faster and I just can't keep up with all the "plans" that fill our calenders! I am just hoping that after this month, I can just relax and take a breather. Its been nice taking walks almost everyday with my dog, it really has given me time to just think and excercise :) I'm realizing I need more discipline in my life. I am the opposite from being a type "A" person that I allow myself to cruise in the "grey" for a while and then have to snap out of it and refocus myself. Its funny how Elson is type "A" so he keeps me accountable for the things I keep "grey".. All this to say, I am so blessed and thankful that I have a family to lean on and even through the struggles of life - God has been so gracious and has been reminding me how much I have.  The more little I have the bigger He becomes, I'm not talking about material things but I'm talking solely about one's heart.

Today's writing seems a bit unfocused or scattered, this is how I've been feeling lately. Hopefully you can make some sense of what I am writing..

Have a MERRY CHRISTMAS!!